April showers bring May flowers. This month was more stormy than I would’ve liked. It began with my legal fears. Worried that my plea deal wouldn’t be signed, I texted our lawyer. Then, using Stoicism’s negative visualization, I prepared for the worst.
Except it was the legal system taking its time. I had to develop the habit of taking the worries that pop up when my brain goes to bad places and using them as negative visualization. The worst fears would pop up, like finding my wife dead, and I made use of it to prepare me for the almost inevitable conclusion. It helps me not to take her for granted too.
After the court fears faded, the memory of my godson’s death followed it. Fortunately, it hurt less than usual.
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